Balance and turns.

So today, I went to dance class (totally awesome btw) for the second time ever, and we learned how to do a special kinda twirl. I forget what it’s called, and yes, I did totally fail at it, but like most of the other ballet things we do, it’s all a matter of balance. Everything is up on your tip toes in ballet, and you have to have really good balance to do anything.

But for this particular dance move, you have to twirl on one foot, tip toe, in a full circle, and land with your foot behind you. Sounds easy, right? Nu Uh! Now I have been working on my balance for months, and this move, for me, is as hard as learning to walk! The problem is not mainly in the mechanics of it though. Yes, I need to make many things become a habit in order to do it perfectly, but the main problem I noticed, was balance.

In order to make a full turn and get my foot behind me for a uniform turn, I need to have balance on my one foot and stay in a full passé while I’m turning. My biggest problem was when I took my focus off balance and onto the mechanics, and in that time, I lean and get off balance. Well, as I realized this and how I need to think in order to correct it, it got me thinking. =)

Allot of people talk about “balancing” their lives, and with spiritual life, getting “back on track”. When I think of getting back on track, I always think of one of those mono rails, and I would think you need to balance those really well to get them to stay on that one little track. But yah, my life has been a little like this lately, and I have been trying to get back on that little mono rail track, but it seems I keep falling off.

Anyway, these two things connected for me, and I came up with a spiritual analogy.

When your spiritual life is off balance and you try to get back onto that narrow road, many times you try to focus on how you should look when you are up there, but that doesn’t work. And just like in my dance, I can’t focus on the mechanics or even the balance to actually balance well either. I have to focus on where my balance comes from. In our spiritual lives, that would be God.

                It’s so hard ‘cause we have the goal of looking a certain way and doing certain things, just like when doing that turn, I have the goal of having everything look specifically right. But in order to even balance well enough we don’t fall, we need to find our “Center of Balance” as Daniel always tells me. And isn’t the Christ the center of everything for any Christian? When we focus on the mechanics of Christianity, we focus on works, and when we focus on balance itself, we focus on ourselves and our feelings, not Christ. No, in order to have a balanced life, a balanced spiritual life, we need to focus on where our balance comes from. And what this the answer? Same as it’s always been, and is, and will be. Jesus. =) Haha. Yay!